when i'm free, when i dun have to commit about issues
but there are times when i can't turn a blind eye. it is these times that i ask myself whether i've done the right thing by saying or doing. To which i did the right thing but the way i do is wrong. So that is why i can't do this alone
i just wish this issue's off my hands soon. Really can't run from it. Cos i started it by standing up and fought not for what i stand for but what the Church Stands on
mom's right. i'm in a community. wat i do if i leave? rot ah? not say that they can't live without me..but it seems that i'm the only who learnt much and am taught to stand up against something if it's not alongside with the Church's teaching - as to how and whether it's the right place n time, that's on a case-by-case basis
no matter how hard i try to leave, it seems like the unseen issues of the community gets me forcefully back
not fair...i just want rest...i just dun wan to get involved...but still this issue, somehow it must be addressed
i feel that i'm always the hated one. i wake people up - that's why they hate me. i tell them nicely with the intention for them to be better people or to make situations better for them yet they turn around n "shoot" me. it has come to a point that i'm tired. i just want to live my life on my own without getting involved people whom i dun want to get myself involved in - i want to breathe
perhaps in doing so i may have become selfish for the wrong reasons..eek
