thank me? i'm dead
it has come to a point that I'M TIRED and i'm looking forward to leave
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
loads off back
it's hard to say no. it's hard to see everyone pushing all responsibilites, expecting us to refill the position
But it is time
Time to step down, let those who have been relying too much on us to run their own show now
and it's even more frustration that they still find excuses to get me involved when ALL that i've done has been clearly explained and re-explained for the umpteenth time, adding "I'M OUT" as an ending to my sentence
although i still grumble that i still have an extra duty as an ordinary member but that's okay cos' i kinda figured that's not too much of a hassle anyway as i'm not going to be so involved like i used to
i was "whining" to my 2nd Spiritual Director why do i have to tell - step-by-step - the ex-leader how to do handover?
My 2nd Spiritual Director smiled brightly at me and said,"You did well." and i duno wat else he teased me with
standing away from him at an arm's length respectfully, i reached out and grabbed a small portion onto his long robe-sleeve and hanged my head and *whined* XD
but his "You did well." was the turning focal point in my life there - a recognition of all that i've sacrificed for the day: my studies, my other ministry duties
and that day was a day of surprises...i got to meet Vik, Brother Lionel (sigh, his email..grr), got teased by Fr. JW (nya as usual XD!!!!), ate great cakes and drank superb coffee, talked to Brother Derrick about anime n manga..he got to learn about yuri, yaoi and shounen-ai and BL and kansai-ben and we saw how they played with their dogs!!! We also got to see the bakery and sampled a few buns!!!!!! i got to see another friend of mine - so long din see her - KYAAA!!!
so, the other ministry...my resignation's approved but as to when's my last day i still need to ask our leader if my help's still needed - but i'd rather stick to the original date like i've initiated
But it is time
Time to step down, let those who have been relying too much on us to run their own show now
and it's even more frustration that they still find excuses to get me involved when ALL that i've done has been clearly explained and re-explained for the umpteenth time, adding "I'M OUT" as an ending to my sentence
although i still grumble that i still have an extra duty as an ordinary member but that's okay cos' i kinda figured that's not too much of a hassle anyway as i'm not going to be so involved like i used to
i was "whining" to my 2nd Spiritual Director why do i have to tell - step-by-step - the ex-leader how to do handover?
My 2nd Spiritual Director smiled brightly at me and said,"You did well." and i duno wat else he teased me with
standing away from him at an arm's length respectfully, i reached out and grabbed a small portion onto his long robe-sleeve and hanged my head and *whined* XD
but his "You did well." was the turning focal point in my life there - a recognition of all that i've sacrificed for the day: my studies, my other ministry duties
and that day was a day of surprises...i got to meet Vik, Brother Lionel (sigh, his email..grr), got teased by Fr. JW (nya as usual XD!!!!), ate great cakes and drank superb coffee, talked to Brother Derrick about anime n manga..he got to learn about yuri, yaoi and shounen-ai and BL and kansai-ben and we saw how they played with their dogs!!! We also got to see the bakery and sampled a few buns!!!!!! i got to see another friend of mine - so long din see her - KYAAA!!!
so, the other ministry...my resignation's approved but as to when's my last day i still need to ask our leader if my help's still needed - but i'd rather stick to the original date like i've initiated
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Decision
i've made up my mind: minus one ministry, minus one core, no matter what..bcos in the end it is not exactly part of the community, i'm just...an extra.
And it's better that way cos i don't want to be involved in their petty exchanges and lack of enthusiasim..i've poured too many concerns on them - it's time i poured concerns into myself and concentrate on what i really wanna do
and pass my exams
And it's better that way cos i don't want to be involved in their petty exchanges and lack of enthusiasim..i've poured too many concerns on them - it's time i poured concerns into myself and concentrate on what i really wanna do
and pass my exams
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