i have this..

bad feeling of what my future would be..sigh..as if i'm not rejected enough

humanly, it's impossible

so, aaargh, had to reach out..n Trust..nya..give me time...U Know my plans..

:o

Shimp'-sama only back next Fri....so's ka..

sa, yudan sezu ikou! XD

a no...pray for us too lah X3

i feel

i'm going crazy

i dun wan commitments, i hate them for now..perhaps it's because i think people are putting obligations on me when actually they are not - i have the right to choose how i want to react - or whether i want to react to any unseen obligation

friendship can be a burden when someone puts an obligation on me

and smses...i'm not really keen on them right now...maybe bcos i need the time to focus on my exam

i'm rushing myself too much

St John Vianney @ Church of the Holy Cross Singapore

http://www.serrasingapore.org/event_Y4PHC_Oct09.html

you need to scroll down to "Year For Priests @ Holy Cross Programmes" to see the programmes

Church of the Holy Cross
450 Clementi Avenue 1
Singapore 129955
Tel 67775858
Fax 67735676

counselling

only takes place when there's a significant change in my life...which i'm struggling to come to terms with it. i'm really forced out of my comfort zone into many unknown n struggling zones which will lead ultimately to the worst non-comfort zone - something that i wish it'll never happen..but somehow i've to come to terms with it..yet i wish it wouldn't happen

it's been

long since i blog here

i'd realised i can do so many very basic things without thinking - very naturally

it was then i remembered that my counsellor told me that my basic mechanisms had been seriously affected by the many traumas that i'd gone through

it was counselling that helped me to realise things, even Coffee Bean and morning snacks. There are many more things that i'd realised

but most amazingly is that i could do basic things so naturally that i wonder if it's true, that i start doubting myself. but it's the truth that i can now

i'm like a baby starting to crawl..

must

totally guilty of what i've done..Confession is a must

i told God too, that if i can't find a jpb within this period of time it means that i've failed my previous subject. Somehow i feel that if i pass i wouldn't be satisfied, cos i dun think i did my best for it

but if i pass it'll be good, less one subject. Cos this current subject isn't as easy as i'd thought it'd be