everything was beyond my control yesterday: lack of sleep, bad mood, time of bus and mrt..
even going to Mass also got problem - bus late
but as i was walking to Church i thought about myself, how lousy i feel and that has got to stop. However how do I think positively?
again i looked at how the green and brown of the trees blend together with the sky. i thought: if green and brown can blend so well in the blue of the sky, why can't i - also of God's creation - blend in too?
aren't i blending in too?!
all the years of negative thinking vanished - all these years of secretly wishing that i can be in the crowd like everyone else is has been answered - i am one in the crowd! like Denise when i told her of my previous problem - when my ex-supervisor had this bad habit of bringing people down with his negative-by-nature remarks in every sentence he spoke - somewhere along the line of "you have every right to be"
*nod* i have the right to be in the crowd and among my companions :)
