another mech story

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a typical conversation

"It's a hassle to push my specs up all the time. I wanna change to contact lens."
"How much is it?"
"$500"
"Just one small action only..(push up specs)"

she's right but i told her of my oily skin problem...so i guess...not that i want to, it has come to a point when i cannot avoid the fact that i have an oily skin problem which my specs - no matter how tight they are - they keep sliding down and now i'm pushing up my new specs more than ever. Let my eyes get used to my new specs first. When i get a job, all works well, den my lenses.

for sure ;)

Cantor...?

just play around with the notes of the verse as i was told ;) i thought i stood tall there..but there's a huge responsibility being singled out..being singled out is not what i like, let alone the responsibility!

what hav i been up to lately..

being cut off got me running on things to do. Fragments of memories here and there but i'd like to think of it as good. My world revovles around my life now. Everytime the same thought pops up i just tell myself i'm chasing my childhood dream, not for anybody else. It does sound selfish but i wasn't aware that i had been linking from one thing to another too much. It took someone to tell me to stop linking n relating that got me to drop links, should we say

yet i still wonder where do i stand now, i'm trying to come to terms in accepting wat i cannot comprehend nor interpret in my own way

but it's true - where's my self-worth now? up til now i haven't thought much about it cos i wasn't aware. As much i would like to lean emotionally but i can't - i'm force to rip myself - like a velcro - away from this search for emotional depend-on

somehow i'll find it - my self-worth. And stand up to all n say, "Hey, i did for myself."