i don't know when i came across a story about a couple of whom one of them said, "After all (the bad) that has happened, i won't pursue much (and agree with the lead character) and decided to live nothing but (for and) in simplicity."
there has been so many "why can't i have this", "why can't i go here n there", "why am i down to this", so many things i wanna buy and have but i can't, to have a lifestyle like my friends are having but i can't
a thought came to my mind "(yah, say if u have done it, gone there, done that, have that) den wat?"
i realised all the frustration of my desires - at the end, there is a stop. A stop of dark emptiness. That doesn't promise a sense of real fulfilment, a sense of wholeness - my spirit dies at the stop - the stop is a dead end
i thank God for this moment after all my weeks of screaming n craving - this one short moment that stops everything in my head after so many weeks of "eruption". i've woken up.
at this point of time when i cannot afford things that i want, the lifestyle i want i put them aside
i want to move on - properly - to see the simple, wisdom-filled side of what life is meant to be
