i thought it didn't happen, so i din ask but politely i waited - in the end i wasn't invited for an event that i thought i could personally witness and appreciate

it's painful to realise that i'm not in the circle of the person whom i've been looking up to. i was waiting for an apology or an explanation or anything but nothing

perhaps it was God's Doing. He Knows exactly where i will feel fulfillment and really have a good time of what runs in my blood. He just Knows. If not for You i think i'll be dead meat

but it's very painful. i guess i know what to do..