found

depression, emptiness - enemy's tatics. The moment this was revealed to me i was full of life, i was able to move, excitment fills my heart again and i found meaning in life

but now i'm back to relax-mode

must be the weather...

simplicity

i don't know when i came across a story about a couple of whom one of them said, "After all (the bad) that has happened, i won't pursue much (and agree with the lead character) and decided to live nothing but (for and) in simplicity."

there has been so many "why can't i have this", "why can't i go here n there", "why am i down to this", so many things i wanna buy and have but i can't, to have a lifestyle like my friends are having but i can't

a thought came to my mind "(yah, say if u have done it, gone there, done that, have that) den wat?"

i realised all the frustration of my desires - at the end, there is a stop. A stop of dark emptiness. That doesn't promise a sense of real fulfilment, a sense of wholeness - my spirit dies at the stop - the stop is a dead end

i thank God for this moment after all my weeks of screaming n craving - this one short moment that stops everything in my head after so many weeks of "eruption". i've woken up.

at this point of time when i cannot afford things that i want, the lifestyle i want i put them aside

i want to move on - properly - to see the simple, wisdom-filled side of what life is meant to be

woah

surprisingly i said, "no" again n again no matter how much i was persuaded. i didn't want to do it. i duno y. but i felt really strong after that.

n also i guess i'm too $@#$ stressed. There's too much in my mind.

event

better to faster come den to drag/wait for another week

Da..

without You i can never move on..

one night of insomnia

has set me thinking about so many things...

i'm feeling a little better although plaughed by weird dreams

what i've been looking forward to...has started...i hope all goes well..

for that one moment in life

there was love
i felt no pain no sorrow

for that one moment in life
i feel love
i felt loved

for that moment in life
i could smile from my heart


for that one moment in life
i could See


for that one moment in life
i could Stand on my own
and not be lonely

for that one moment in life
although small
i felt Holiness
so Holy that i could not touch

for that one moment in life
i feel loved

i will never forget
should i do
i want to be
reminded